Decision

This is a personal blog post, just a warning.

So my life has changed a lot in the past couple of weeks. I have really felt Heavenly Father's love for me lately. He has placed amazing people in my life. You know what you talk to some one and they tell you exactly what you need to hear. I have had so many experiences lately.

It all started when I went to dinner with a guy from my ward. First of all he is one of the nicest people I have ever met. We talked about how to decide to move and he told me one thing I don't think I will ever forget. I have been feeling its my fault I don't know what to do with my life. He assured me that it wasn't and it really made a difference.

The next night I talk to a girl that just got home from her mission. I really look up to her. We talked about the decision to go on a mission. I really was glad I talked to her. She just showed me she cared. That night I went to the scriptures hungry. I needed to feel something. I read Moroni 7. It spoke to my heart. It wasn't the words. It was just the way I felt.

Last Tuesday, the next day, I was at the Institute and no one was there. I sat at the piano and played some hymns. I really do love the hymns. They give you so much insight into how the gospel actually leads your life. I felt so great about my life. Then I talked to my institute director. He just told me that I need to grow and this was my decision.

MY DECISION!

Every day after that was just another reminder that this was my decision.

That Friday, I talked to a newer girl from my ward, who is just awesome. We talked about life decisions. I learned a really important thing. "Just let me be unhappy!" The Lord knows what is right for everyone. He wants us to be happy! We have to follow His direction and not just what we want. When we go against His will it always leads to unhappiness. That thought about being unhappy has really struck a cord with me. There is something that I want very badly that would probably end in disaster.

Then Sunday and every day after!

I have made my decision. I am moving to Utah this fall. I am terrified. I must leave my family. I must leave my friends. I must leave the big Lubbock sky! I must leave - almost - everything I have ever known. But, I will be ok. I know that whatever thing I would chose would work out. I know that this will be a great adventure for me. I will grow as a person. I will become more mature! I am excited (when I'm not scared).

I have made another decision. I am going to live life to the fullest while I am still here. I really wish that one thing could happen (which I will not post)!

Come, come, ye saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with joy wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day.
Tis better far for us to strive our useless cares from us to drive;
Do this, and joy your hearts will swell -
All is well! All is well!

Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
'Tis not so; all is right.
Why should we think to earn a great reward if we now shun the fight?
Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;
And soon we'll have this tale to tell-
All is well! All is well!