Friday, April 30, 2010


This is a personal blog post, just a warning.
So my life has changed a lot in the past couple of weeks. I have really felt Heavenly Father's love for me lately. He has placed amazing people in my life. You know what you talk to some one and they tell you exactly what you need to hear. I have had so many experiences lately.

It all started when I went to dinner with a guy from my ward. First of all he is one of the nicest people I have ever met. We talked about how to decide to move and he told me one thing I don't think I will ever forget. I have been feeling its my fault I don't know what to do with my life. He assured me that it wasn't and it really made a difference.

The next night I talk to a girl that just got home from her mission. I really look up to her. We talked about the decision to go on a mission. I really was glad I talked to her. She just showed me she cared. That night I went to the scriptures hungry. I needed to feel something. I read Moroni 7. It spoke to my heart. It wasn't the words. It was just the way I felt.

Last Tuesday, the next day, I was at the Institute and no one was there. I sat at the piano and played some hymns. I really do love the hymns. They give you so much insight into how the gospel actually leads your life. I felt so great about my life. Then I talked to my institute director. He just told me that I need to grow and this was my decision.


Every day after that was just another reminder that this was my decision.

That Friday, I talked to a newer girl from my ward, who is just awesome. We talked about life decisions. I learned a really important thing. "Just let me be unhappy!" The Lord knows what is right for everyone. He wants us to be happy! We have to follow His direction and not just what we want. When we go against His will it always leads to unhappiness. That thought about being unhappy has really struck a cord with me. There is something that I want very badly that would probably end in disaster.

Then Sunday and every day after!

I have made my decision. I am moving to Utah this fall. I am terrified. I must leave my family. I must leave my friends. I must leave the big Lubbock sky! I must leave - almost - everything I have ever known. But, I will be ok. I know that whatever thing I would chose would work out. I know that this will be a great adventure for me. I will grow as a person. I will become more mature! I am excited (when I'm not scared).

I have made another decision. I am going to live life to the fullest while I am still here. I really wish that one thing could happen (which I will not post)!

Come, come, ye saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with joy wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day.
Tis better far for us to strive our useless cares from us to drive;
Do this, and joy your hearts will swell -
All is well! All is well!

Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
'Tis not so; all is right.
Why should we think to earn a great reward if we now shun the fight?
Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;
And soon we'll have this tale to tell-
All is well! All is well!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Today I was a grown up!

So I used to think that you were a grownup when you were like 19...So untrue.

Then I thought you were a grownup when you had a Christmas tree.

A friend then told me that when you own a washer a dryer you are a grownup

I have these things and some times I am not sure!

However, TODAY I was a grownup!

I woke up and went to work! I made lots of phone calls. Answered emails. Made appointments. Took care of my flight info that got messed up. I went and visited someone for my calling. Came home and ate dinner. Went to my girls camp meeting and am now waiting to pick up someone from the airport. I know that sounds boring, but hey thats probably what being a grownup is all about!
*At my girls camp meeting they knew I was a leader (I guess I don't look 14 lol)


On another note....someone keeps mowing my lawn and I don't know who does it. Every time we decide to mow our lawn, we come home and our lawn is mown! 

Seriously! Last night Melanie borrowed a lawn mower and today our lawn was mowed! 

Phantom Mower of Lawns Thank you!

Monday, April 19, 2010


So I had an amazing weekend! Amazing!

Today...Today was not as good. 
Last night I came home and I couldn't sleep. I just kept tossing and turning. 
I basically didn't sleep most of the night and got up at 8 to talk to Melanie (because I haven't seen her in over a week).

I went back to sleep and then woke up and got to work. 

I have so much stuff to do. 
-Lab Job
-Wedding stuff (not for me lol)
-Normal Church stuff
-Fun (I hope this fits in there somewhere). 

 I hate stress. I hate that stress gives you pimples. AND Pimples make you feel ugly. So Stress = UGLY. 


I know I have no room to complain. I am so blessed. 
 I can smile because the gospel is true.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Sunday with a Cherry on Top

Today was a good day...just flat out good. 

I woke up late lol unintentionally...and made a delicious breakfast. 
Got ready for church and prepared my lesson. 

My lesson was about the Sacrament. I really do love the new gospel principles manual. I love that the lessons are short focused and full of true doctrine. Its amazing what the spirit can teach you by reading those lessons. 

A cool insight I had today was about the savior. Here are some scriptures in Ch. 26 of Matthew.

Verse 39) And he went a little further, and feel on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.

Verse 42) He went away again the second time, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done.

The thought struck me, the Savior prayed if it be possible let this cup pass from me...So basically He asked Heavenly Father to take it away if it was His will. Then being the wise son of God He is, He knew that He had to drink the cup in order for the cup to pass. How wise He is.

Sometimes, its the Lord's will that we go through things. And a lot of times we will pray that they go away. The truth of this is that our trial are for our benefit and that we have to go through them. Many times thats how we HAVE to learn lessons. 

In these scriptures, the Savior set a way to go through these trials. 

I just really enjoyed this sudden realization. 

Like I said today was a good day. I love church and the way it helps me feel like I can do it! Most days its I think I can....Sundays help me say I know I can.

Here is the Battle Hymn of the Republic (Listen to the last verse! I really love the words!)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The 11th Commandment

Lately life has been very interesting, certainly comical. (and a little boring). 

One thing that has made me giggle is Melanie.
We can always have a nice giggle together! I think that is very important. Whether it be about the trash can hissing, or about the ghetto shower curtain. We can always laugh. 

 Lately, we have been watching Jane Eyre. I have never seen it before (its on YouTube, incase you didn't know). It was very interesting and good. 

A girl, in the show talks about how the 11th commandment is to let yourself love. LOL. 

I think thats okay...but I think the 11th commandment should be SOMO!

Another tradition of Melanie and I, is to watch the last scene from North and South. 

Thank you Melanie!